As I begin typing this post, I’m sitting in a fairly busy deli where I can just make out the words to the song playing over the blended sounds of people talking and children making silly noises. (The song: “Insensitive” by Jann Arden) I’m alone, and that’s okay. It’s more than okay; it’s kind of great!
I’ve already worked over 42 hours this week, and it’s only Thursday afternoon. I clocked in to attend a conference call meeting this morning that ran about 90 minutes over its scheduled end time. The meeting was hardly productive and bounced all over the place, I wasn’t fully prepared, and I had a hard time focusing because my mind kept wandering to anywhere else I could have been at that very moment. I wanted the words to stop flowing from everyone’s mouths because I didn’t feel we were getting very far, so those words started sounding like background noise – like Charlie Brown’s teacher … “Wah wah wah…”.
Finally off the phone and clocked out of work, I shut down my work laptop and hit the road. It was already 12:30pm, so half my day was already over. I only have one goal, and that’s to use my Bath & Body Works gift card on my favorite scent, Warm Vanilla Sugar. Where is that gal who promised to bring me a box for the other half of my sandwich???
The music isn’t improving, and now a child is whining/half-crying, and I’m no longer okay with this location. I need to move. Time to flag down that box!
Next up: Legends Coffee
I ordered a Vanilla Latte with a little cinnamon steamed in. The latte, in a porcelain cup and saucer, was beautifully topped with a floral … oh, what do you call those fancy artsy things they do with the cream? Latte art! Impressed – both with the presentation and the flavor! There’s a long bar down the center of the coffee shop, but I can’t use it. The stools are too low, and the counter is too high for me even when standing. There are outlets galore here, making it a great place to get some work done, study, or have small meetings. It’s pretty open and bright. I wish it had more small tables or comfy chairs. There are a lot of tables for four, and most only had one person sitting at them.
I’m more than halfway finished with my latte, and the design is still floating on top!
More alone time is scheduled for tomorrow. Whatever will I find to do with myself?! I’ll be in good company no matter what I find to do. Company that shares my opinions on everything. Company that won’t argue over where we go or how long we’re there. Company that won’t complain that they’re bored.
Please, family and few friends that I have, don’t think that I don’t enjoy your company. I do. I promise! It’s just that my brain … my soul desires and greatly benefits from time alone. You know when we’re together, and I get quiet and seem distant? That’s me on social overload, which doesn’t take a lot. That’s also me trying to keep up with my brain and its many thoughts. During larger social gatherings, I often feel more alone than I do when I’m by myself. I’m not weird. I’m not defective. I’m different. I’m among a small percentage of the population that feels this way.