I recently wrote about a new direction I’m headed with my career. The thought process that pushed me to take that first step in pursuing it was omitted, though. I thought I might expand on that in case it might help just one other person out there who may be hesitating to try to make a change out of fear.
An internal posting went out to all employees about two positions opening in another department, and the opportunities were open to current staff who work from home. The day I saw it, a light switched on inside of me … for just a moment. Then the moment was gone. I was far too busy to think about it. Besides, I spent 3.5 years getting to my current “rank” of Senior Agent in my department. My supervisor said he was trying to figure out where I could advance from there but that it was going to take some time. That advancement could have been to another Lead position that may be added at some point, but there were no guarantees.
So my brain returned to my daily tasks as I closed the email announcement … until the next day. I opened it again. This time I thought fast and decided to go for it. What pushed me to take that leap? Intuition. That’s what it had to be. Something inside wouldn’t let it go and led me back to that announcement. I had to “act now and think later”. So I applied the day after the openings were announced.
Only after that did I really think about it. What had I done? The position is essentially lower than my current position, which was created out of necessity. I pioneered my current position. Why would I want to leave that? Ultimately, the decision wasn’t about status. It was about stress relief.
I’m 47 years old. I’m not driven by a desire to climb some glorified career ladder. At this point in my life, I’m fine with clocking in, doing the job, and clocking out. I’m done taking my job to bed with me. Yeah! It haunted me with nightmares plenty of nights.
Smart employers do whatever they can to hold onto their strongest employees. When I looked at it from that perspective, the praises and raises made sense. They were wooing me to keep me right where I was. As enticing as praise and higher raises are, I had to break free from the chains holding me in place to battle a monster. I actually referred to myself as a dragon slayer when talking about my job.
New position good news: they didn’t have to cut my pay. The not-so-great news: my raises may be lower. I guess I’m kind of expensive. 😀 This is not a deal breaker. The benefit of much lower stress far outweighs receiving a higher annual raise. That’s a small price to pay for leaving anxiety behind!
I’m glad I listened to intuition and trusted my instincts. I was already counting how much longer I absolutely had to keep my job, so in the back of my mind (OK, more toward the front) I already wanted out. Maybe this position will allow me to work for the company longer and hold onto some pretty great benefits AND afford to finally travel to England someday!
One more day slaying dragons. I had volunteered to work on Memorial Day, and that will be my last day in the department. Then it’s bye-bye monster – hello new adventure!
Do you trust YOUR intuition?