I think I had mentioned in an early post that I decided to join a worship team at church again. Well, last night was the first practice. There was a time when we had two practices before singing, but they have changed that to coming earlier on Saturday to count as the second practice. That change was made some time ago, so that’s not at all the issue.
The issue is that the team I’m on now, though the people are just as great, does not stick to the key of the songs we are given to practice to for one to preferrably two weeks before practice. So for the past week, I worked so hard at nailing certain notes on these songs on the CD only to have to sing them in an entirely different key after all! The two songs that were changed are my favorites, too. One of them I have to sing entirely in falsetto voice (i.e., OPERA-ish). The other just has two or three notes that I can’t hit, but they’re in the chorus. It will sound ridiculous if I drop out there, and there’s no harmony that will work for it. If I false those notes, it will just sound squeeky and ruin the feeling. The key was changed because the leader can’t sing that low – nevermind that now someone else struggles to sing that high.
Where does this fit in that The Heart of the Artist book? I don’t see this as teamwork; I see it as a solitary decision. I usually keep my claws in, but this is really eating at me. I’m afraid to bring it up because I’ll be viewed as just another artsy person complaining and wanting it MY way.
I had to dump this somewhere so I can try to let it go and focus on work today. I hope this isn’t an indication of how it will be every time this team sings. If it is, it may really have to be the end of it for me. As much as I want to do it, if it’s going to hurt, I don’t see how I can continue. As much as I don’t want it to be a “show”, this is one thing I truly appreciate about my old team … we always sang all songs exactly as we practiced them on the CDs. I don’t read music, and I don’t know how to take it up a third just like that!